I'm using stumbleupon right now ahaha but something keeps coming back to my mind, like an thought was incepted into my brain.
Hate, it's one of the things I really don't get. seriously I can't hate, or at least bring myself to hate anyone. I can't do it. It's too powerful of a word and too cruel of a meaning. I keep thinking of people who start wars and why they started the battles in the first place. Hate, Jealousy, Expansion and their need for discrimination. Looking at these reasons I'd "hate" for us all to end up a dead pile of meat on the dirty radioactive floors (probably dust...) So why do we hate? Is it because we can't stand the sight of another person so badly that we just wanna get rid of them forever? Maybe it's because we're not tolerant enough to withstand the heat or not loving enough to simply ignore. We start wars and end up killing each other, maybe stop all together for a drink on christmas eve and wave a white flag for the night. but day breaks and it starts all over again. Whatever friends we made christmas eve now lay in a pool of blood, a pool of not only their own blood but blood of their brothers, comrades and friends. Hell it might as well be our own bloods in the bloody mess. But who cares, it's LIFE or DEATH out there. you shoot me, i shoot u. You die, I die. And no one cares, or at least no one safe from the gun sounds of war gives a damn. All they want is victory. Because victory is always the best, always. But what do u gain from victory? do u get the lifes of the soldiers back if u win? does the land feed the dead soldiers with food? Does having your race die for your sake of hate, jealousy and need for determination feel right? Is it really worth it to have millions of life sacrificed to have your need fulfilled? Did Hitler ever regret doing what he did?
It's also funny how this world works as well. The nice people gets taken advantage of. The assholes and bitches and hoes get what they want because they grab, they steal and they cheat. They made it to the the top. Great! Now every asshole, bitch and hoe are going to come at u and rape your ass. well karma right? Ha if only things were that easy. Do all the serial killers get the Kick they deserve? did karma get them? "but they're in jail" Yeah, no shit sherlock. but that's not right... they killed people, the part that controls hate in their head disappeared and they get treated with food, a playground and people to socialize with. Yeah yeah they might get the rough life, but they're still living with conditions higher than some people in poorer areas. How is that right? Can't we get rid of the "pest" and give the hard working honey bees more scraps, let them live a better life?
It's hard being nice in our world. the second u let your guard down and start to trust in ppl is the second u start getting hurt. oh yeah it's not alwayyyyysss like that, finding a real friend is possible, even if it's like finding a needle in a haystack. Possible, very possible! but good luck. It's been hard for me to find one, moving here and there makes it almost impossible. I've had several great friends, but not one who I would actually call my best friend. I guess one good thing that came from moving a lot was teaching me how to close myself from other. to read the book before checking it out from the library or buying it (horrible metaphor...) But still, i'm still too trusting, too caring, too loving and too nice. Doing the things normal ppl will never want to do. Doing things so willingly, that no one really notices what i've just done. haha i still look back to see if i'm blocking the view of the ppl behind me. <span> </span>Yet, whatever may happen because i'm the way I am happens. and i let it happen. I'm too lenient to shit, too unfed up with imperfection, too caring to not give, but thats just me and I don't wanna change myself. So please don't make me.
These's just one more thing i wanna say tonight (it's late... 3:20am!) Don't always think that u might be facing the worst day ever, chances are people are suffering more than u'll ever suffer. Maybe no one around u, no one u know, but that doesn't mean they're not out there or they couldn't have just been fired from a great job, or lost their loved ones or w/e the reason might be. So ALWAY and I MEAN ALWAYS think of the suffering they might have before u start weighting down more word of hate to them. Be loving, be gentle, like u want them to be to you.
August 19, 2010
It feels weird putting my name at the end like it's a letter, but i'll do it anyways :D
Yours Sincerely,
Davido the Speedy Red Tomato (hahaha)
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