Happy Mother's Day! :)

Hello Mom!

Happy Mother's Day!
That's all I have to say!

Love David











P.S

I always wonder what the cost of being a mother is. It must be wonderful thinking about the physical and mental cost of being a Mother. From the second we're born, we're literally ripping you open for our first gasp of air. Of course at that point we don't know the hell we're doing, and we won't for quite a few more years. Yet we cause demonic chaos in the household, it can't/ shouldn't have been fun as a parent, and out of the ruins you still seem to come out with bright wings on your back. I remember the old days, the times when you were taking care of me in our apartment in China. I remember how Dad left to Canada for a job and I remember how loving of a Mother you are. Then I remember how it must have felt being you. There was no way it was easy, it must have been comparable to being a single mother at the time. Yet all I can remember from that time is the warm and caring Mother I had, you didn't show any weakness, any struggle, any pain. You were the real superhero.

Lets be completely honest, I'm not the perfect son you hoped to raise. I had a lot of problems growing up, I was a trouble maker, a deviant, a liar, and a lazy couch potato. I didn't want to study and just wanted to play all day, I didn't help with choirs, and I didn't get you the "Mother of the Year" award.

Do you remember, the day we sat outside Maggie's townhouse? The day I realized my life was in shatters, the day that I realized my life was coming to an end.

Do you remember, all the times where our conversations lead you to tears?

Do you remember, protecting me from the wrath of my Dad, when I refused to do the dishes, when I failed classes, when I broke stuff, when I crashed the car, or when I was just to stubborn to listen.

Do you remember, all the sleepless night you have just thinking about my future?

I'm sure the list goes on.

Do you remember, all the suffering you went through just for me?

I'm sorry.



What I'm trying to say is, you never gave up on me.

Through all the tears, all the pain, all the heartbreak. There was never a moment that I felt abandoned. Through all the tough times in my life, there was a guardian angel overlooking my life. Taking care of me through all the retarded things I've done. Guiding me spiritual and mentally through all the hardships and emotional roller coasters. I'm so grateful for all you've done. Words aren't enough to thank you for all you've done. Just know that I would not be here today without you.


I can't say, I'm the perfect little demon you wanted as of right now, but I'm finally on the right track.
I pray that you will live a healthy life and grow old, that you will be able to play with your grandson/ granddaughter. I hope that I can someday repay you with all the feathers you shred for me and if that means changing your diapers someday. I'd gladly do it.

Without you, this world would be a whole lot darker.

I love you.

To Live is to Love

Dear Special One,

    To live is to love, that is all. End of Blog :)

Haha, Shortest Love Story Ever!

We met with some weird circumstances. You didn't remember my name and I didn't think that much of you. It was typical. None of us knew we were meant to be with each other and none of us knew we would be going out for 4 years, and none of us would even know what the next few years spell out.
I can't say, things aren't going to happen, because I can't predict the future and I can't prevent fights from happening. But I did make a promise and I know you know which one. I Won't break that promise. I will always watch out for you, always give you my support and always give you advice. Because no matter what, you are a brilliant, talented and caring human being. You're also cute, silly and wild, which makes it more fun for me.

This is starting to sound like a suicide note... So lets rebirth this note :)

^ REBIRTH! CLEVER RIGHT?

4 years honey, 4 years. Its not a magical number but who care! Its magical if I call it magical, and maybe it is a little magical that I have been able to spend all this time with you. The Zombies didn't come. We're still alive after 24 years/ 22 years. and we've been going out for 4 years (that's not magical... cause if it is, it's like i'm saying WOW DIDN'T THINK THAT WOULD HAPPEN) but the time we're had together has been magical (Once again sounding like a tragedy letter). To be completely honest I don't remember a lot about the last 2-3 years... but thinking back to it, I can only think about the happiness I've experienced and how life was awesome and fun and full of adventure. Its a life style I don't want to lose. 

You used to always ask me, "Why do you love me?" and I've always given you a short answer. Mostly because when it comes to expressing my emotions, I am a man of few words.
Yet, my love for you isn't in a few words, maybe a few paragraphs, a few pictures, a combination of a few movies. I hope you understand how much I love you when you look in to my eyes (OMG SO CORNY, can't type this shit LOL >.< ) and when I'm squeezing the poop out of you while we're cuddling. I can't get enough of you, and I can't let you go. 

( US )

Time with you is enough of an anniversary present :)

I'm Cumming LOL OMG JK

My heart bursts with love for some cute sweety pie :)

(I wonder if people read this, at which point do they stop reading this)
Probably now, because they can't stand the corniness, unless your weird 

Meow, WOOF WOOOF WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOF
You understand :)

You're the Ling to my Wang? LOL
The Ung to my Bong
The "Maggie" to my "Waggie"  (<---- totally new word)
(Literally giggles silently for 2 mins here)

All jokes aside though :)
It can't hurt being as beautiful as you are.
There's more than just beauty in you though, I wouldn't want to marry a dumb pretty girl... My parents would probably think I'm retarded.
There's a smart smart engine inside that brain of yours. We'll say I trained it :D
but seriously... the rate at which you learn stuff? Holy shit, makes me a bit scared to challenge you...
The compassion. The Yin to my Yang. how much you care about family is almost scary at times... It's almost like you're a Mother already. (maybe that's why you have those marks hmmm...)

The Sex, LOL next topic
The RIDE LOL Okay seriously man, this is serious, get it together me OMG
The Car rides :D HAHAHAHAHAHAHA Okay done

The adventures, it never gets boring with you around, never. Spending time with you is just fun!
THE GAMING, This is a game changer. I would die if my gf didn't play games or didn't allow me to play games. You play games with me, and you try so hard to play the games I play.
The Sweetest Fucken Thing I've ever seen... GG MAN GG MAN <----- WINNER WINNER CHICKEN DINNER

 Too much words need a picture 

The Sweetest. You taste like sugar... that's weird, cause you taste a bit different... but that's another topic hahaha.................... you are so sweet and innocent. I love seeing so many people looking at you with admiration in there eyes and hate for me because I'm dating you. Haha oh well TOO BAD BITCHES.

I dunno Missy, You always do things to impress me. as if your still trying to win my love. haha stupidly cute. Don't stop, it's cute
That Pout OMG hahahahahaha keep doing it

That Weirdness
YOU AND YOUR SLEEP TALKING!!! WTF you just said "just put it in the laundry, why don't you just... mumble mumble dahfkjaslhfksjadhskjgh" cant understand
The best times I've had is when I get to talk you while you sleep talk haha you wake up still in the dream and then "I'm confused" hahahaha too funny. 

Your starting to whine in your sleep :) I wonder why. Its like your body misses me haha. 

                                                   Another Picture

The Food. Dayum girl you can cook. Of course I cook better :D but it's okay you cook more :D

Our interests are pretty similar. Either that or you make my interests your interests...

Family time. My family LOVES you "when are you gonna get married" "When are you going to have a child" My favorite "having you a child will save you on taxes" 

I can be myself. I'm weird and I'm super glad I can be weird as hell around you.
You have a bright future. I can see it in you. It's time you see it too.

Anyways, I still have to order you present... soooo oops

Love you Babe,

BILL BILL BILL BILL VS the Ham

Well... what can I say... it was not the debate everyone was looking for I'm sure... haha funny how it turned out, but I can definitely say it turned out exactly the way I expected it. Well almost... Mr. Nye did ten times better than I had actually expected and I respect him much much more.

I think a lot of people turning into the debate expected either side to completely dominate the other side... But I'm sure that when both sides are arguing with two opinions with various "black holes" in knowledge there can only be a certain point to where the debate will go.

If you ask me, being more biased to Creationism... I would say that Bill Nye won the debate, but really it's not that case... I think it was more of a stalemate than anything else.

Why? Well no one radically changed their mind... and no one convinced the audience to change their minds immediately after (or I had observed).


What I got and I agree with Ham is that there you really weren't there so you really cant tell. Growing up I've realized that unless you see it you can't trust it and even after you see it, it doesn't always seem to be what it seem. (Which is why I also can't seem to believe in God, because I've haven't seen him in person and miracles can be strokes of luck and coincidences) SO being able to see evolution happen it's a bit hard to believe that it's absolutely real. (As I'm sure that is how most scientist view it {"Scientist"= people who want to learn about the world... specified just for you Mr. Ham!}) However... Nye does a really good job explaining all the scientific evidence pointing to the fact it cant be possible for the earth to be 6000 years old. All those talk about drilling ice, rock layers, astronomy, and tree rings and the math equations proving how unrealistic it would be to have only a 6000 year earthly history. Nevertheless it's pretty hard to debate / disprove when the opponent just keeps saying... well that's how God made it. It's pretty similar to how a child will not be convinced that Santa Claus or the Tooth Fairy are creation until they see that they daddy with his beer tummy and red overalls devouring the milk and cookies laid out for Dear Santa. Or until they see the slutty pink ballerina tutu and old wrinkly legs of the not so magical mommy who's stealthy sneaking into your room trying to STEAL your Gold to be. This is the thought process behind many Christians in our age and THEY'RE INCREASING! OME (as in OH MY EVOLUTION)

I read a lot of people's comment to this debate, speaking out on how Mr. Nye shouldn't have debate again Ham because it gave more credibility to the creationists, but I think it was awesome for Bill to do so. Why? Well think about it... Christianity is increasing, and possibly in the future it will be main religious view in the world. So soon the world will be so much more full of idiots who believe GOD did everything (not saying there's anything wrong with people only believing that the world is only the way it is because God made it that way. Or that there is anything wrong with people believing that their future is already predetermined by fate AKA God's Plan. Or Anything wrong with basing everything off one piece of evidence and having people no challenge the world and why everything is the way it is. OR anything wrong with the fact that stories will logic can be the tree of knowledge, but I'll let you decide what is really wrong {OFF TOPIC})
Anyways back on point... when there is less people willing to challenge the nature of the world, what will happen to our minds in term of creativity, innovation and ideas? Will we even develop anything if we think God will provide everything we need in the future anyways. He will make fish and bread multiply and water into wine once again so why does it matter. Will innovate ideas come to us when there is the thought that all we need is created already and we should be fine with what we have?

Can you imagine a place where everyone believes in God so much? Well you dont have to... There are societies out there that worship the word of God to the letter and look where they are :) Living life i'm sure :)
Enjoying life to it's fullest, eating the best food, feeling the best wind, and getting the adrenaline from Wing suit flying.

So Thank you Bill Nye because you have taken a BIG BIG step into fighting for the current education system. All the other scientists who refuse to debate with creationist are on creationists side because not speaking up for your belief is just the same as accepting that creationist is believable. SO SPEAK UP! Fight for the right to have your children search for the origins of life.

BTW Mr Ham?

• Adam was created from Clay? Which is lifeless I believe... so I believe you just contradicted the Bible?

• Yes the bible was translated many times and now it is american English and every other language... Can you really say that every version has the same translation? Cause every language has a different definition or understanding of a word... imagine the understand of a sentence... now a chapter and then a whole book...

• Really? REALLY? are you fucken seriously Ham? WTF is wrong with you... I can tell your obviously joking but it is childish rude and even retard to keep on saying "Well There is a book out there... that tell us "

• All these dating methods give out different dates, of all which gives a history of more than 6000 years. However inaccurate it might be, 20 million trials (made up #, but could be true) later, none seems to date the world at exactly 6000 years old.

• The Laws of Logic hahaha... Uh i guess it's logical to believe a God... who has never show himself

• Nye based his belief on evolution on various possibilities, theories and evidences out there that support the theory of evolution. Ham? BIBLE IS THE TRUTH AND THE ONLY TRUTH. Do you teach your children to find multiple evidences for a cause and effect or do you tell them to fuck off and believe that God made it that way?

• Are you really going to say that the audience wasn't mostly creationists? Hosting it at a Creationist Museum and getting them to laugh pretty much only at your jokes? Hmm well either way I'm sure you are awarded HAMsomlely for your performance tonight.

• Bill kept asking you to provide a prediction... I think I missed that part of the speech. Can you email me your prediction please?

• I read a quote some where "Never debate with an idiot because they will pull you down to their level and win" Well Bill you managed to continue speaking scientific evidence and with that you win :)

• Your creationist tree of "kinds" is laughable, where did dogs come from? of yeah God! Where did the lizard fish come from? Oh yeah God... Wait so Lizards, amphibians and fish are all... GOD DID IT SO STFO... Okay yes sir Heil HITLER

• Why doesn't people debate with Creationists? Cause GOD GOD GOD GOD GOD GOD GOD GOD And wait for it GOD

•  So here's one for you from Richard Dawkins "But who cares about creationists? They don’t know anything”

• 170 summers and winters every year for 6000 years lol

• 11 new species a day for 6000 years lol Might be a misrepresentation due to Bill's Confusion with species and Kinds

• Human skulls chart? Did you forgot that part?

• Your sources in the beginning? the videos of scientists/ creationists HAHAHA okay give me more please. I want to see who else you can come up with to give more credit lol

Okay I think that is enough for now...

We will let you enjoy your 15 mins of fame before the internet completely dominates you and your Creationist Museum.


From the Internet lol

Nye: The morphological evidence, geological record, the fossil record …

AIG: Bible, bible, bible.

Nye: Not only that, but the DNA evidence …

AIG: Bible, bible, bible.

Nye: Then there’s the scientific method itself. When one considers the evidence …

AIG: Operational science, origins science. Bible, bible, bible.

Nye: Actually, evolution makes valid, testable predictions about …

AIG: Were you there? Bible, bible, bible.

Nye: But with creationism, you don’t actually produce anything of scientific value …

AIG: Bible, bible, bible. Lake of fire!




Till next time

YABBA DABBA DOOOOOOOOO

No regrets?

I've read your blog before and I know you think that having regrets is impossible right?

Well this is my standpoint.
I am who I am right now and I am satisfied with who I am right now. (This does not mean i'm am not trying improve myself, it only means that i don't hate myself for the wrongs i've done)
I believe that every single instance of my life leads to the person who i am right now.
So whether I do things right or wrong, I have learned from my wrongs and if I didn't do what was wrong, then I won't have been able to see what I could have done to have been right. You don't learn by doing things right or you do a bit, but by doing wrong you learn so much more.
Because I love to learn and i don't mind doing things wrong if I learn from them, then I can't really hate myself for doing things wrong.

So why have regrets when I have changed for the better?

Yes, I do wish to go back in time and change the stuff that I had done and do things differently, but I think that with the lessons i've learned, the past i want to change will only make me someone worse.

Keep in mind that this only works because I learn from my mistakes... If I never learn... then yeah... no kidding I would go back and change everything...

As well as, I'm still alive, still breathing and still able to keep improving my life. There is no "Too late". There is only "I am still alive, still breathing and therefore I can change my life."

Remember, It's never too late to right your wrongs

So no regrets. This is the way I want to live and the way I want to die. To live with no regrets and to die with no regrets. But I know if I die now, I will have 1 regret and that is to have not been able to correct all the wrongs that I have done.

I am Vision

Found the secret to inspiration... but have yet to find the secret to motivation...

but then again... is there a secret to motivation? Isn't it just busting your ass no matter what? But that can't be right...

anyways that's not the point of this post.
The truth of finding inspiration? Well you can't just sit around staring at the same stuff all day and expect to suddenly have a vision and have sudden inspiration. No it doesn't work like that... I can bet that all good visionaries travel the world and experience and see many things before they started becoming visionaries that changed the world. I believe that in order to be inspired, you must see things first. Sounds simple enough.
Just like creativity, it comes from things that we've seen but are unable to give credit for. WE combine stuff and poop out stuff which might be new and call it creativity. Inspiration is similar because we see and feel stuff that turn into some vision which we inspire to do.

I am a visionary, which leads me to become inspired to do a lot of things and I'm beginning to take down the notes of the stuff that i think of. Unfortunately the thing going against be is my ability to communicate my ideas and my inability to find motivation to continue and execute the projects. In addition... I haven't won the lottery yet... And the fact that most of my ideas are HUGE and require a huge about of assets to fund makes me less able to find motivation.

Start Small
Well... Laziness > that ^
I also rely on people too much...
I guess I am just purely a visionary... not an executor, not a communicator and therefore I am useless...

You've Found The Jigsaw to my Soul

Maybe when we were created, (if we were created ha) we were made with two pieces of soul. then something happened and our soul were separated and sent far away, hidden, lost and communications cut off. But it's our soul! Its what makes up human, it's what we're send in this world to find. It might be a side mission to our destiny, but it makes up a hella big ass portion of our quest log. What does that mean then? does it mean that we can't finish our destinies without a full soul? No, it just means that we can't fully live our lives until we've 100% completed our missions (ha sounds like a game).

I guess, maybe, somehow, in this messed up world, I might have found my soul-mate, yet I can't be sure. It's only my first, I don't know what real love is, but all I know is the feelings I feels are not fake. It's funny how things come into your mind randomly as some other info would trigger another thought. But I realized it, last night. It shock me, left me wondering, as if i understood the world from a new perspective. Only wish it'll last.

Ha soul-mate, a cracked half of our soul, always searching for the other part. It's been 20 years, maybe it's a bit early to say it, but it could be true. (sad I can't tell if it is, I guess no one really can... Idea: Soul mate measurer haha) Its when we hug that truly makes me wonder... I guess it could be just affection, but we squeeze ourselves closer to each other, almost as if our souls are magnets trying to complete itself but our physical bodies prevent all contacts. Maybe heaven isn't really a place where angel, god and people live, but a  metaphor for when 2 pieces of a soul collide and continues on as one full soul. What happiness would that be. You've found the one thing you've been searching for from the dawn of life. Maybe death is an answer, not a escape, but rather life is. (sounds emo as foooookkkk) Death, a new definition, an escape from our physical prison.

CASA applications are due tonight... I want to run for president and vice president, but I don't know what I should run for. People tell me to run, cause casa needs me. But why do they need me? what can i do on board that i can't do when i'm a GA? It was a question that i asked myself and can't find an answer for and to this moment i still can't. I don't know what i can do differently... I thought of doing less (haha) and tell them I can do more for casa, but when it comes to me, when i'm already so dedicated to casa without being on board, what can i do? I wonder sometimes if my dedication will bring me automatically into a board position, but it won't. My speech (ha what a joke) was horrible last year... i've talked joining casa for a girl, wow what a mistake that was. I guess i took it all as a joke, thinking i was going to get in no matter what... What a dumb decision that was.
well this year is different, i've grown and i've learned. My speech (haha) is well... more or less jokes... although i haven't written it yet... i know it will be more a humorous than serious... Cause that's who i am. And this interview is just a game. a game where you're trying to sell yourself... sell your image to the people who are making the decisions. Lies, not honesty will give u the upper edge. We live is a FUCKEN world where lies and not the truth gives the upper advantage. Where the fuck is all the honest people? On the streets, dead or buried under lies so deep that they can't tell a honest sentence from a lie.
I won't lie, No I definitely won't lie, it's not worth it. I don't need to make myself look perfect to become a president. Cause no one is. We all have flaws, don't think that with flaws you can't be good at something you love.

I will run for casa though, i'll run because it's something i'm doing for myself, and I know i will stay dedicated because it's something i love and something that no one else told me to love. I'm not doing it for others, but rather to help casa grow, to help myself grow. I'm not doing it for my parents (hell if they care), i'm not doing it for friends, and i'm not doing it because some retards are on board right now. Hell I lost last year to a fucken loser... well i guess thats just how life goes. But then again, looking positively, I hope this experience shows the world how horrible this person is. But he will get his way with his life, because CASA's no government, it won't ruin his life... I've lost to this loser... I've let competition get me... I've lost... but i've also learned. And this year will be a success.

Lots of stuff happened, MAASU is over... i guess i should be glad that i don't have to work under horrible management, but it was fun. Meeting Clara Chung and having her know my name for a short while is well a honor. Haha what a clever little girl, memorizing people's names certainly have a positive effect on the other people's lives.
It's too bad that MAASU's over but there will be more fun in the future :) and I look forward to it.

No Regrets

No Regrets 

I’m living with no regrets

Just lessons learned.

Respect earned.

Bridges burned

Ashes churned

Flames with the wicks taken away

Calendar missing the days

My mind counting the ways

That I’m wrong

Never am I right

Right is a privilege

One I obviously haven’t been able to buy

Oh sigh

Don’t cry

Silly child

Do you really think that that prize was worth the trip

Following the rainbow…

Missing all that was on the trail because you were looking for that pot of gold

Did you find it?

Oh well

Maybe next time!

Cause there will be a next time right?

Oh yea…

Nothing’s ever promised.

So was today worth being lived?

If you die before you wake

Do you regret any mistakes?

I’m living with no regrets

Just lessons learned

Because I don’t think I’ve done anything wrong…

Well anything anymore wrong than anyone else…

But I’m not just anybody

I’m David

Big brother

Big red tomato

Best friend

Good good good friend

Good friend

And a friend to many… I’m not just anybody so I’m not settling for what everyone else is doing

Imma do me

They can do them.

I live with no regrets because that’s how I choose to live

I choose not to regret that which makes me who I am

And I am

Who I am

Take me

Or leave me

But never any regrets.